August 2010
First day of my 3rd semester in college starts today, in a few minutes. Yay for weight training.
I’m in dire need of knowing how to stop stupid, petty, pointless, and ridiculously retarded fights from continuing to occur.
Apparently I’m a liar, I’m never happy around or not around him, I am angry all the time in his eyes. When I try to say he’s being stupid accusing me of lying that I’m in a bad mood, he says I’m just trying to defend myself. No I’m...
Could my boyfriend make me feel anymore like shit?! You want to swear at me a little more and call me a fucking liar? HUH?! Why does he have to accuse me of shit, REALLY stupid shit and get into pointless fucking arguments with me? He needs to fucking shape up or I don’t know what I’m going to do.
He’s now acting the way he does before he dumps me. I’m waiting for a reply to see if I did something to piss him off which I’m sure is going to set off an argument. I don’t fucking do anything wrong. I can point out so many things about why I should dump HIM.
I’m fucking done trying. If I’m going to be ignored and treated like shit, so be it. I’m done trying to be miss nice cute girlfriend. fuck it.
I hate that I can’t move out any time soon.
1. I dont know if I have a steady job yet so I could save up.
2. I do not have someone trust worthy that has a job to be a roommate, cause there’s no way I can do it alone.
I’m going to be 20 years old next month, still living with my parents, being treated like a fucking 10 year old.
I’M AN ADULT. I KNOW THE RESPONSIBILITIES...
On FB I posted “1 month” just to say it’s our 1 month and he thinks by posting that i expect a gift…why does he have to be such a fucking asshole?
Im done caring and trying to be romantic or cute. fuck it
I got bitched at earlier for calling my boyfriend “sweetie” by him….
apparently Im a horrible girlfriend for doing so…happy fucking 1 month
tomorrows our 1 month, finally. even though technically on friday itll be 5 months…
I dont think he even knows…
I hate feeling like I’ve done something wrong. Even though I haven’t. But not talking to me and being pissy towards me, its helping this.
I need to start jogging and doing more than just 2 laps.
I dont feel attractive at all to my boyfriend. he never fucking compliments me
I feel like shit
If I dont find something funny, I DON’T FIND IT FUNNY! dont make a big fucking issue out of it. ugh rage
shivers
I don’t think I could be anymore happy and thankful that I like in the USA. Fucking bot flys are crazy shit! I never, never, never EVER want to experience that!
Im so happy with him.
