I’m in dire need of knowing how to stop stupid, petty, pointless, and ridiculously retarded fights from continuing to occur.
Apparently I’m a liar, I’m never happy around or not around him, I am angry all the time in his eyes. When I try to say he’s being stupid accusing me of lying that I’m in a bad mood, he says I’m just trying to defend myself. No I’m fucking not. I’m JUST SAYING IM NOT IN A BAD MOOD BUT BECAUSE YOU’RE STARTING A FIGHT I’M GETTING IN ONE NOW. He thinks I get into a weird mood around 3 or 4 weeks of us dating which makes him act weird. I honestly have no fucking clue what he’s talking about but he has it set in his head because of the first 3 times we were together. I’m sorry I can’t help that I KNOW when somethings wrong and I want to talk about things which sets him off and he dumps me.
Telling me, “i dont want to hangout with anyone and be alone” is anyone=just me. Everyone else is fine though. “Anyone” IS “me”. Hm. I didn’t know that other people are not anyone besides me….You don’t want to talk to ME grow a pair and tell me.
I’m trying my goddamn hardest to help him out because he gets paranoid. He can deny it all he wants to but since the last time we broke up, I’ve been seriously okay! He refuses, REEEEEFUSSSSESSSSS to believe that I am. So what else can I do but say fine, you want to think I am, go right ahead but I won’t continue to defend myself because TRUST is APART of a RELATIONSHIP. DURR
I can’t call him “sweetie” or “babe” without being reemed for it, I guess girlfriends aren’t allowed to say that…or be cute in general.
OH! And I can’t take this anymore. Just because we’re going easy and casual I’M STILL YOUR GIRLFRIEND. Start fucking treating me like one! I’m not one of your damn guy friends that you can mess around and talk shit because you think it’s funny. Compliments are nice! It lets me know that you DO like me and that you DO care for me and you DO think I’m more than just “cute.”
Could my boyfriend make me feel anymore like shit?! You want to swear at me a little more and call me a fucking liar? HUH?! Why does he have to accuse me of shit, REALLY stupid shit and get into pointless fucking arguments with me? He needs to fucking shape up or I don’t know what I’m going to do.
He’s now acting the way he does before he dumps me. I’m waiting for a reply to see if I did something to piss him off which I’m sure is going to set off an argument. I don’t fucking do anything wrong. I can point out so many things about why I should dump HIM.
1. I dont know if I have a steady job yet so I could save up.
2. I do not have someone trust worthy that has a job to be a roommate, cause there’s no way I can do it alone.
I’m going to be 20 years old next month, still living with my parents, being treated like a fucking 10 year old.
I’M AN ADULT. I KNOW THE RESPONSIBILITIES LIFE HAS AND THAT IT’S NOT EASY. But stay the FUCK out of my business and MY money. Just because I don’t want to do something they mention, doesn’t mean I don’t want to do anything with my life! I HAVE EVERYTHING PLANNED OUT SO STOPPED TRYING TO MAKE IT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO CAUSE ITS NOT WHAT I WANT TO DO! I can’t even talk to my boyfriend about it since his response is to stand up to my parents. I’m sorry, I’m not going o risk being kicked out of my house with nowhere to go. Are you going to offer me to live with you? Didn’t fucking think so.
I haven’t cried in quite awhile, I can’t stop. Which pisses me off and making it harder to stop. The urges are coming back again. I’m trying my hardest not to breakdown but there’s so much pressure on me right now! I can’t take it!
I find out yesterday my boyfriend doesn’t care too much about our relationship so I don’t know WHY he’s even with me then.
I’m scared I’m going to loose my 4th job. The economy fucking BLOWS so the stress of trying to find a job along with my parents nagging, nagging, nagging every fucking day that I’m not trying or that it’s not that hard when they have NO fucking clue what it’s like!
I believe if I moved out, so much stress would be taken off my shoulders. I wouldn’t deal with not being trusted, that I’m pathetic, stupid, not going to get anywhere with my life, yadda-yadda….
They make me feel so worthless, like I don’t know what I’m doing. I do know though! They just can’t get that through their thick skulls! I seriously just want to drive my car into a fucking building so all this pressure, and hurt stops.